It's 7am in the morning, and I just got back from a RUN! I completed a full 34 minute run, and ran 3.3 miles. To be quite honest, I wasn't sure if my knee would ever fully heal. I wasn't sure if I would be able to run 4 miles like I used to. Though I have been cross-training and completing a jog here and there for the past year, this is the first time I have been able to run a WHOLE run, with only a little pain! Like the Physical Therapist urged me to do, I kept focusing on not letting my knees fall it. I also worked on not landing too much on the inside of my foot. In short, we are trying to bring my knee-cap back where it should be. My right knee cap is pulled off slightly to the right side of my body, due to IT-ban tightness, things due to growing, my flat feet, and my build. It felt so invigorating to finish a run at seven miles per hour, without any pain. After that, I came back, and now I'm starting back up my with pushup and sit-tup regimen. Let's get back to it!! Praise the good Lord Jesus!!!
I constantly wonder, "Will I succeed this year?" and "What exactly do I want to do with my life?"
In this mindset, it would be sooooo easy to pity myself. It would be soooo easy to pull a "poor me". But.... I can't. This is NOTHING. People around the world are going through far worse things than this. Don't get me wrong, I do have a lot on my plate, but if anything, I should be thankful. I should be thankful that I have to worry about homework, and not food. I should be thankful that I have to class write papers, and not grad school applications. I should be thankful that my family's next meal does not depend on my paycheck from work.
I should be thankful that God is putting me through this storm. To be honest, this is the most stressed I have been in my entire life, but I'm glad that it is happening. If there was never any cold rain, how would one know how nice the warm summer day is? If there were never harsh words, how would one even know what a simple compliment is? The harsher the storm is, the more beautiful the small things become. Though my personal storm (which has been this semester thus far), I have found joy in standing outside, and letting the wind run past my ears. I have found joy in sitting at my kitchen table, and watching people walk by. I have even found joy in standing outside on a cold night, without a coat, because it shows me that there is beauty in the bite of the cold. It lets your body feel goosebumps. It assures you that your internal heating mechanism is working properly.
Here's a video from one of my inspirations, Kid President
This world we live in, is a beautiful one. The things that happen in the world, can be dark. We have to see the positive in EVERYTHING that we can. We have to try our hardest. One thing I have learned this semester, is that you have try your absolute hardest in EVERYTHING. Even then, you hardest isn't enough. You have to push even harder. Sometimes, even that comes short. At times like this, you have to do some introspective work, and ask yourself if you really did the best that you could. Sometimes, you and only you will know that. But you have to be okay with the fact that only you might know it. You also have to be okay with the answer.
Here is a video about Success:
This past Sunday at church, the message was about money. In short, the pastor was talking about how we should not idolize money. We can choose to worship money and financial gain, but in the end it is just in vain. Why? Money can be gone in an instant. As an American, I have things that over 70% of the world does not have. With this, how can I even begin to lust after more and more money. 1 Timothy 6:8 says it best: "But if we have food and clothing, we will be content with that."
Also, it has been quite the stressful semester. I haven't been into the Word as much as I should, and in different areas of my life I am slipping. With this, I realize how truly crucial it is to keep God your number one priority. Last night, I was reading Daniel, and I came across the ninth chapter. In this chapter, there is this amazing prayer. It was almost as if God opened up the Bible and said, "Here David, read this"
4 “Lord, the great and awesome God, who keeps his covenant of love with those who love him and keep his commandments, 5 we have sinned and done wrong. We have been wicked and have rebelled; we have turned away from your commands and laws. 6 We have not listened to your servants the prophets, who spoke in your name to our kings, our princes and our ancestors, and to all the people of the land.
Tonight, I was driving in the car with my girlfriend. I was talking about everything that I was stressed about, and everything that needed to be done. All of the sudden, we arrived at a stop sign. As the car came to a stop, we were forced to admire the pending sunset, that was coming down onto the mountain peak. I said, "Wow, I don't know what I'm stressed about. We live in this beautiful world, God is so great, and that's all there is too it." She followed up with something that I will never forget. She said, "Isn't it great that the turning of the earth isn't dependent on you?" I thought for a second. She continued, "We worry about all of these problems, but at the end of the day, everything that is essential for you to function, is still working. Your heart is still beating. Your legs are still walking. We don't have to stress about keeping our hearts beating. We don't have to stress about whether or not we will be able to keep the world turning tomorrow. Everything that we worry about, is so insignificant in the big picture of things"
When I came to college, I used to run four miles every other day. When I became a sophomore, I upped that to four miles a day. About this time last year, towards the beginning of my sophomore year, my right knee started to flare up with pain. Long story short, since then, I have just had to bike due to the sharp pains in my knee. I am so happy to say that after attending physical therapy for a couple of weeks, my knee is getting much better! I am now able to jog!!! Ah, what a liberating thing it is to be able to have movement back